{"id":955,"date":"2014-04-24T08:58:16","date_gmt":"2014-04-24T15:58:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jessamyn.com\/journal\/?p=955"},"modified":"2014-04-24T08:58:16","modified_gmt":"2014-04-24T15:58:16","slug":"patient","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.jessamyn.com\/journal\/2014\/04\/patient","title":{"rendered":"Patient"},"content":{"rendered":"

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So for the first time in ten years, I missed giving a talk (missed the whole trip) because I was sick. And I’m bent out of shape about it. No one likes being sick, of course, but I have a weird “Am I TOO sick to do the thing?” set of anxieties that I start getting when I am doing something with other people. Do I just lump it and suffer through it? Do I stay home and get better even if people are relying on me? Do I put the people on the airplane at risk of getting the crud because I have unrefundable AirBnB reservations? I have a hard time making these decisions and I am lucky that I have sensible people around me to help me make them. I’d been feeling punk for a few days but it was waking up on the day of my flight with a fever that clinched the “Don’t go” decision for me. The nice people at TXLA were totally understanding. My talks were even online and ready to go and I toyed with the idea of giving the talks via Skype but 1) no one really likes that and 2) I still didn’t feel that great.<\/p>\n

And so since then I’ve been digging out of feeling bad about that. And I’m heading to Mackinac Island on Monday (assuming the ice gets broken up in good time<\/a>) for the Michigan Rural Libraries Conference<\/a> where I’m keynoting and I’m trying not to get phobic about staying healthy until then.<\/p>\n

Meanwhile there’s been a bit of waiting-game stuff going on at some–oh let’s be honest, most–of my other jobs and I’ve realized just how terrible I can be at just waiting and being still without some sort of geography quiz or Vermont cop mystery or todo checklist to occupy me. I’m in Massachusetts for a few days (love the jobs I can do from anywhere) because it’s school break in Vermont and I’m trying hard to go for gadget-free walks and see how things are going in the frog pond<\/a> day by day. The waiting isn’t easy but I think it may be healthy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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